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meh..

2005-02-08T17:32:00.000-08:00

bleh... just when things were going good.. everything screws up again. well maybe not screw up? maybe it's me being a sook and bxtch. who cares. why cant they just leave me be.. its not really there business? all theyre doing is making things harder.. im independant.. therefore i wouldve done it earlier if they didnt push me soo hard. not blaming anyone... once again maybe its just me thinking a tad too much. she keeps blaming herself and apologising.. what for? it wasnt her fault... >< *sighs* it wasnt anyones fault.. man i dunno.

yesterday wasnt a great day.. T.T kept falling asleep in school and when i got home sisi kept telling me not to give greasys to the kents at school? like wtf? im giving them dirty looks? FUCK OFF. they stare at me like as if they havent seen a fucking asian in their life before. or ISSIT BECAUSE IM ONE OF THE ZHANG VARIETIES? what the fuck do they think this is.. im an endangered species who's in a zoo? i dont think so. FUCK OFF.

*pause* ^^ apologies for the excess amount of bxtching, complaining, ranting&raving =)

and yeah.. then someone calls.. and they get pissed off at me and hung up on me because im not a very good listener at the current time because i was doing two things at once.. im a guy wtf do you expect. >.<>.< but sall good.. i dont really mind.. shes always pissyhissy at me. -.-

my mum was annoying me about my messy room which fucking pissed me off and then a particular person tries filling my head with shit about Her. fuck i dont wanna know and i dont care about what you say or think. ppffttt..

ok thats enough for now.. wait theres more.. AND IN RESULT OF THAT.. i was on the brink of clicking it so i went offline immediately and went to sleep early to prevent myself being aggravated by anything. consequently.. i couldnt call/talk to her last night in case i take it out on her like i did to mykal [sorry lad.. thanks for talking to me about everything] .

errrrrr.. and yeah..... i hope shes not pissed/annoyed/angry/mad/sad that i went offline abruptly and didnt call.. bleh sif she cares anyway. >.<

lolololol... woah.. i have issues =P

s/2dave.

makcel's bday

2005-02-06T23:13:00.000-08:00

errr.. yesterday was makcel's 15th bday drinkup at K. a load of shit happened last nite.. the night didnt pass by without a few thousand fucking dramas and delimmas. bleh.. started off with a few harmless beers.. and then things started going weird. shit happens.. if she wants to drink then who the fuck am i to stop her lols -.- plus.. if i try telling to her to stop drinking its a bit fucking hypocritical considering if i continue to drink.

almost everyone was wasted last night.. sighz lols.. one fucking wild night indeed inc. lesbians trying to touch and feel other girls *Cough* i really hate it when shes drunk.. i should speak for myself though. everything just alwayys fuck up and in the end everythings all shitty. but oh wells what do you expect.. thats what alkii does to you.

i dont understand you. im sorry ive made you wait. im sorry i was a fool to think that you can always hang around and wait. sorry that im 'pussy'. i just fucking like you THAT much that i wanna take things slow so i dont fuck up like everything in the past which has screwed up on me. im sorry im too careful. if you ever do find that you've waited too long and you decide to move on... i dont think i can and would ever blame you. i know you have lots of other things on your mind that you have to put up with and to think about atm.. and i dont want me to be another hinderance in your ever-busy life since ive wasted too much of your time already.

doesnt mean those feelings for you arent there anymore. in fact.. they're still there plus even more. when you left for holidays.. it made me long for you even more and when you came back.. it was really weird.. all that anticipation to see you again.. i think thats the reason why it made things a tad awkward sometimes. im just soo sorry.. but ive been thinking; you mean too much to me now that i cant just let you go.

sorry about the lovey dovey mushy emotional entry dickhead-blog-readers.. buh im a very sorry person >=*(

weekends finally..

2005-02-04T08:29:00.000-08:00

*sighz* ..finally the weekend is here and about time too! >.< hrmm.. woke up this morning and i was fucking dead. i seriously thought about not going.. buh it aint like year 10. why cant it just be more interesting. all i do is sleep in most of my classes. actually.. i dont sleep much anymore.. i just put my textbook infront of me to cover myself when im playing gameboy or reading artemis fowl. shutup. its a good book you gookhead so dont tease me about it =)

man.. that victor guy.. its quite a nerd.. 8-) i bet hes on scholarship or something! geeekfreeak material lads. hahah.. today we went looking for him during lunch and he couldnt be found. he mustve been in the libaray thrashing through the books trying to mentally consume them. sighz.. whatever happened to the humbleness colly taught me LoLz.

anyways. i hope this weekend is gonna be good.. ive been looking forward to it all week.. dam i shouldnt have taken it for granted during the holidays LoLz. -.- btw! happy bday MAKCEL! we gonna drink up tomoros and atm i feel like getting wasted. as olly&anisha would say; GO HARD OR GO HOME BXTCH..! =D i hope theres no bxtch drinks.. i rkn beer is waaayyy better.. sigh.. buh i dunno whether i should drink THAT much cos its lyke its the holidays anymore..

i was supposed to blog about something.. but i forgot? dam im starting to have a goldfish memory. errr.. i feel like shit atm so ill end it here and sit in bed and read artemis fowl. goodbye.

s/2.dave

schooling..

2005-02-03T08:59:00.000-08:00

hiii.. i think im getting used to school now, even though i dont want to. awww man im sick of school.. and i shouldnt be cos its only for my own good right? yeah stfu too. im a geek. sue me :]

starting to settle into new school.. its very different from burwood but sall good cos ill get used to it. time to have a bxtch! theres some geeek in my classes called victor and he is jst a plain FREAKGEEK. omfgosh he sits up at the front and answers almost every single question the teacher asks. and hes always disagreeing with other people's opinions and then he brings up crap like how religiong is a accepted form of skitzophrenia and how theres a number called "E" or someshit and how it is equivilant to 1.125231523 please shut up victor or i might click at you and chuck my 3unit textbook at you >=] . even at soccer today, we were all planning to just gang up on him and tackle him and then stomp on him and then shatter his glasses and then give him a wedgie and then wack his arse and then steal his brain. GRRR. okok.. if colly read that she would punish me. WE EAT HUMBLE PiE.

hahah omigosh ive got wasted like 5 times for sleeping in class LoLz >.< ..mainly in economics, business studies, english, studies of religion and ipt... omg i might as well say i have a nap in each class except maths LoLz.. cos i love maths so dearly that i plan to do 4unit maths. NOT. man imagine how massive the 4unit txtbooks would be.. omigosh maybe i should do it so then i can peg them at that victor guy's head. =D BUT STILL.. i choose to stay up late into the earl hours of the morning because.. yeah.. i stay up late ok ! ..and i enjoy it you cunts and there nothing you can do about it XD !

sighz.. valentines day coming up. WHY OH WHYYYY.. you know one day im gonna shove cupid's own arrow up his arse. fucking bastard guy. >=) yeah anyways.. im looking forward to this weekend cos im gonna spend time with Her and thats all what i want atm =) im gonna end it here now cos i wanna get rid of my h/w so im freeeeeeee this weekend. byebyes

s2dave.

woahh...

2005-01-31T21:04:00.000-08:00

hmm woahh.. greetings people. im back bwahaha =D
all thanks to ANN though.. who made this for me; i suddenly feel oh so much special.
layout is cool huh? she gave it an urban look hahah . anyways.. thanks heapss!.. at least now i can be bothered to blog again =D
..ill thank you more some other time =)
hmm.. moving along.. holidays have come to an end. after 2.5 months of no school, today i went back to school.. a new school in fact. i walked outta my house today with my backpack and my new uniform all ready to face the day which was lying ahead of me. st marys cathedral was my destination. great start considering i rocked up late. so lost and confused, i couldnt even find my other school mates moved to the new school as well. oh wells after a while i got settled down and the boredom and dullness of school kicked in. i tried to remedy my boredom and dullness by napping or putting my head down and closing my eyes in class. it was sucha familiar feeling.. the feeling which i experienced only last year.
woah.. last year seems soo long ago now. i guess ANN is right.. this year is gonna go by fast. why does everything have to be rushed and go 3583256235km/hr. its scary how fast everything is going. seems like yesterday that i was playing handball in primary school. seems like yesterday that i was still a little kid and everything was so carefree and happy =]
anyways now im just drifting away into my own private lalaland.
i think late nights and early mornings are taking its toll on me so i think im gnna end it here.. another school day tomorro T.T
pray for me hahaha.. thanx ANN; i shall make it up to you =*)
byebye for now.